It's already mid December, it feels like it was just recently way to hot to go outside, and that I was just starting here in the lab. Though that's now five months past, I feel like I haven't really made any progress (though I do feel like I have somewhat a handle on things, my experiments just don't seem to come out). I have recently been having not the greatest of times, and feeling rather discouraged all in all.
In the beginning of November I took the Biochemistry GRE, and last weekend I took the General test. Having now received my scores from both test, I am not too impressed with my self, and as I am in the process of applying to a plethora of schools (which is costing me quite a bit), I am now a little concerned about whether I'll be accepted to any at all.
I wouldn't say that I think I'm stupid, but sometimes (or often) I feel like the amount others think that I know far exceeds the amount that I actually know, and results in me with a sensation of being a fake. I do enjoy what I do, and the learning of the biology, but at the moment I am feeling that perhaps I am not cut for this.
After spending my entire life debating whether I should pursue biology or not, and I finally do, and now I feel like it was a mistake. The problem is that now I don't think I'm cut out for anything else.
I think this is a slightly dramatic post, so I will end it now.
the weather has also turned to being wet, and I miss the dry cold.
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